I am having the most difficult time getting this blog composed and posted. One because the Wix app is not working welll. C’mon Wix 😕. And the other reasons are for struggles mentioned in the blog. I am having the most difficult time getting this blog composed and posted. One because the Wix app is not working welll. C’mon Wix 😕. And the other reasons are for struggles mentioned in the blog.
Seems appropriate to blog about my recent struggles to find my balance and catch my breath, both metaphorically and literally in the spiritual sense on a day that I have to squeeze in a blog using the mobile app because I have stuff planned all day. I am fortunate that lately I have become aware of a significant mental shift, an improvement, a further awaking, if you will. But with it comes a weird sense of unease as well. As mentioned in the title, lately I am struggling to find my balance, and find my breath. I struggle to hold my energy at a calm level for any amount of time. It’s almost as if suddenly I’m aware that there is all this space to fill and I am anxious to fill it. It is also that now that I am more aware of where I want to be, what direction I want to go I am more aware that this is not it. So although I understand here and now are necessary and part of the journey it still makes me anxious. Also I am now aware of anything that is not in line with my mission (see last blog) I have no patience for things that do not further that. Part of the problem is I am in the midst of another transition and I don’t quite know how to fill my time yet. I do understand this is all necessary. It reminds me of the saying, “All great changes are preceded by chaos”. I can here the suggestions now and I agree and I do workout, do something fun and meditate everyday. But lately it’s not enough. It’s almost as if the times I do try to disengage and slow down aren’t enjoyable but I know I can’t go full tilt the whole time. Forgive because, as I mentioned this is scattered and disconnect. It, like me, is not very balanced. 😊 As always but especially now I welcome advise and feedback.